I DID NOT WORK HARD ENOUGH

i blame myself for didnt did my best to solve it,face it and do it.i m like a fellor standing bside a beach while he dun like to swim at all.i m not lost,is juz the omph,is gone.

I DID NOT WORK HARD ENOUGH!
I DID NOT DO MYBEST
I DID NOT TRY IT
I DID NOT EVEN TALK ABOUT IT.

som fellor asked me,u seem so free.u can come to gym omost everyday.i told him this,ya,other than sleep time that i cant control,my others 17 hours,i try to do multiple things at once.so that i wont waste my time.bt now,seems like there is 2-3 hours in a day that i got nt much things to do,should i add in som others things to fill up the time?