a night that wash my face wih tears

this is the 2nd time i cry after broke up wih my ex.tears juz come out from no where n washes my face wih the sadly feeling.as i lay down and keep relaxing my mind, kev a n kev b was fighting.
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kev a of it said "y stupid cry for girls and she's not even ur gf"

kev b fight back"hey brother,it not like onli can cry for gf,had u ever imagine how hard he is go gone thru this time?"

kev a reply...."well that is bcoz he is so stupid,who the hell ask him go to used his heart, juz play play n continue his life that would be better"

kev b "arh....u devil....that will nv noe...human used his heart when he is really like or love som1."

me: shut up u both!...do not need to make decition for me!she edy maked hers,so no more arguement can be make anymore...she say BIG NO NO to me.

kev a "so sad....arg....poor baby.....no worry there is plenty more girl....scare wat."

kev b "kev, no worry she will understand u 1 day.....is a good experience for u oso....well...u still lag of this experiences....u will able to find ur fate."

"tq u both,bt in the mean while...plz do not comment anything,juz let me be me!i wish her to see the real me...not any1 of u...."

a special xmass

xmass eve went out to poopy garden bar hav a drink and friends drunk.wakaka he actually sleep on street and i hav to wait him on street over a hour.arrive home around 5am.sleep straight.b4 going bak home sended her a msg,asked if it posibble to proceed our relationship,she nv reply and my heart is worry and nervous.
next morning, i was waked up by her message ringtone,i knew is her msg me.again, heart is shaking and nervous,bcoz wanted to know the answer.as i expected,i fail.heart start melting,cant listend anything that said by others.soul lost,the onli thing left is a empty body.after lunch, went bak home staright and while driving, her msg keep playing in my mind.
after arrive home,i also do not know y,suddenly i feel so tired,feel like need to nap after all her msg was around my head,so tired.hope lifes will get better after next year, is quite bad this year..alot things happends.

Strange feeling

my strange feeling start from a lunch.my keep seems not so normal coz it keep paying attention to her.den i was trying to get her msn n number.(u noe wat i think lah.)a day after work, me n her was gather 2gether at a shopping mall.it is surpose for movie prupose de, but my heart keep "vibrate" wen having dinner b4 the movie.since that day, i noe wat i wan n i noe how i feel to her.so, the next thing i did is ask her to go out! finally i had this chance to go out wih her..shit tambah 1 extra ppl pulak.so wat cna i do...find a way loh.bt thanx god oso lah...she wan go off early..den i hav time to continue yam cha wih her.finally..somting happend (do not wan to tell u wat happend!)XD

my 1st task at quest

so the very 1st task is a xmass e-card.evonnce (my ah head) told me she need a corporate xmass e-card, den of coz i hav to said ok.after few minutes,i receive her mail.she sended me last year xmass e-card that done by other designer.den i was like ok.....herm....i think i can do better that this.so i started my research.feel free to give comment after see it.well is corporate stuff so...u noe lah...

here is the link.www.atquest.com/xmass_ecard.

My 1st multimedia job

i got a job from a company called atquest solution in damansara. the 1st day i started work there, erm...is kinda a weird.coz 1st day mah, so have to introduce myself to others. so janice the human resource people bring me to my place and start intro me to other ppl 1by1!.omg...is like i remember i onli said 3 sentence

1nd."hello i m kevin"
2nd."ello, nice to meet u , i m kevin"
3nd."morning , i m kevin"

is like so embarrassed.bt anyway.is a good experience.so..i m kinda like it.well ello to at quest stuff if u r reading this post. nice to meet u all!

miss her alot!she onli been go bak for about 1 week...bt feel like she is gone for a month....omg!i miss her everyday.wake up 1st thing is about her.sms her b4 i brush my teeth....wat so special about her?er......i love the way she treat her self....is so real...not like som girl so damn fake.even few days ago went to cineleisure watch blullet & brain....and saw a girl.....wtf??her boobs is like bola sepak....so damn fake....and her face oso.....cover using "make up mask".haiz....bt she oso manage to get bf a......probably their "night life"is alot more nice than mroning....i believe one day...when after they do their "business", and the girl take a way her "mask"...onli realise she is so fake den i think he need to scream n said "哇!!!看到鬼啊!"...bt mine girl diffrent...hehe....do not noe when she will accept me...bt i think she is the 1.and onli 1.got pic u ask me?er.....later bah....when i really with her le...den take som sweet pic den let u see see loh.

plz take everything that is belong to u!!!

2day abit moody...feel like alot stuff have to get it done bt progress now still 0%!!few day ago,ppl was tell me hey , u r 23 now still study n where is ur future? ya ho! where is my future??m i going to explore out there or i will guai guai stay in my dad company n get peace for the rest of my life??to be honest i dont really wan a peace life.i prefer explore n when i get hurt i get up my self althougt i m a person that like to cry alot.clean house suddenly a very familiar smell passing my nose..n my tears was dropping.it the smell of her.i m actually packing her stuff to let her take it bak when she come bak .i m moving bak to home soon.every single memories that leave in this house, i still "see" the shadow of her was her .making coffee for me,cleaning my bed for me b4 i sleep,sitting bside me ....hugging me,cook,take nap,smile infront me,every single sweet moment...till i shouting at her,mouth war,she keep quite,playing her great online games, chatting with other guys, everything still in my mind.

now is the time i 4get her.pack up her stuff and keep in the bag.even the memories i should put in the bag. let her take "everything " that is belong to her.alot things hav to keep magazine,books.too much!!is my future bright?peace?save? or fun? excited? too much things hav to be done.seeing my mom every single day get older and her wringles is more n more.i cry in my heart.mom! wait for me..1 day..1 day u will get wat u expect.althought i been disapointed u at my early age...now i wont...u will hav my promise...for u mom n dad! thanx for ur support me for 23 years.it is my paybak time...i should take care u 2.

stuck + bu shuang + mood = down

this few day bukan makan jiu sleep den play wii den sit infront pc.like this die lioa.mmps interface havet to shoot real pic...where to shoot woh...den wan shoot hypermarket photos summore...diealot things to do a...16 pieces of figures hav to be done oso...walao......so many works de???y?????y ppl can go north of australia gai gai den i hav to stuck here?y ppl cna relax i hav to stuck here?y ppl can play game i hav to stuck here??stuck!!!!!!!! my new interface.bt lec said hav to shoot it with real photo den out come better...so shoot loh

my new pet.

my new pet finally shape out.his name is mirage c01-gaea.this guy damn alot details.not like normal gundam figure,big chunk + big chunk = a gundam figure.this guy u need to becareful.alot of small stuff and detail.well...it me 3 days to built it up.actually 1 full day would able to build it ....just i dun hav that kind of passion to do it.so i divided it to 3 days.hahaha......kind of nice thor....bt i prefer thos figure that oledi make and just post it.den that it.is like post ur $$$ at ur home / room.love it ...........

go kl gai gai....

go kl gai gai bt seem like nth really much new.transformers action figure .......er.........sux.is like those very lao ya de plastic make de...cant get photo to shoot thor coz the shopkeer dun let me to shoot ....realise alot of dust flying around while walking on the street.took few pic that like it abit.was planning to go find idea about mmps and paper folding bt too nth much got thor.....is a good relax trip thor..took som of the photos about a trees......love it.

nintendo wii

now was wondering about nintendo wii.friend took tv that she borrow me year ago.now hav no tv at home.feel like bit of emptyness + -laught + -joy.was trying to get nintendo wii to releaase my stress and my diet stuff thor............saw som other ppl make home brew sencor bar......wtf damn funny.recently watched alot of wii promotional clips and game preview clips.....really kenot tahan,wii so adorable and cute.is oways better than those women hurt me so much.

a feeling that make u unstable

she told me that she will be bak very soon,her friend is waiting for her, so i let her go...........in the middle of night, i woke up and still in a blur condition bt i was realise that she wasnt here,so i went to check, she not home either!i check the clock, is 5am in the morning.i try to track her by using internet and i found her at a online game.the strange thing is she is the 1 who ask me ' not yet sleep? '.i was shocked! i start asking her wih a abit of angry tone and she nv reply.this is wat she oways does.from 12-5 am,i was so sensitive to the ambience sound.was looking for the sound i familiar with.the walking sound, the keys and the door.bt once again,she let me down.i cound't sleep at all.is just like somting will be happend anytime and i hav to be very concious.i do not know since when i had this kind of ability and when she start to change her inner parts.she may looks the same from ouside,is totally a diffrent person from inside.did i do anything wrong?m i the 1 who dun wan to let her go?