上星期，我把她的画像送了给她。约在klcc的kino 那里等，但她好早到,逛玩了kino.才12 点,那时候我还在火车上.她打了电话给我,问我在那里,我回答"来了,来了"!真不好意思,让一个女孩等我.我到达后,二不话就飞去吃午餐了.整整3星期没见到她了,种觉得她变美了.可能情人眼里出西施把!

午餐中,我们谈了好多话,我好想向她说,我还喜欢着你,但此终之前我以表明朋友还是较适合.可能口不对心吧.不是可能,简直就是!看着她长长的细发,温柔的眼睛,就已经让我喘不过气来了.有人说,你最喜欢的人，永远不可能得到。我有过一段很好的爱情回忆，也有过一段让我每夜晚泪湿枕头的记忆。我不想重复当年的过错，只想好好有一段普通的爱情故事，让她好好的过，保护她，爱着她。

我常给人一种超花心的感觉，但我是吗？我也不知道。双子座吗，贪新鲜！但话说回来，如果我真的那么花心的话，那3 年前我也应该找别人了啊，待在klcc只有短短的3 小时，我好想把它停止，停在这一段美好的时刻里，但有可能吗？回家的路上，头脑只有她的影子。毕竟在回家前，我们一起搭ktm,我很争惜那一段时间，应为我知道，在过几分钟，我就会离开他的影子了。我的双眼没停止的望着她，好想要把她的笑容记起来。如果你有机会看到的话，我想向你说声“谢谢你” 和“我好喜欢你”。

the revolution of my self in this 3 years

i were like 65 kgs wen i juz bak from ireland and for a meanwhile,i keep doing exercise den go down to 62....bt this is juz the beginning of hell.....wen i enter toa ,i were enjoying staying wih friends, go out mamak at night,lazying and all this coz me fat...really fat..bt not juz this...after "she" come into my life at my 2nd year, she were so good...to cook me good food, nice food, delicious food, tasty food....well u noe..wen som1 cook soooooooo damn nice food for u..u cant juz leave alot behide right...?so i finish it wih 2 bowl of like those put sayur punya rice bowl...alamak....bt still happy.....den i gain alooooooooooooooooot of weight. from like about 65 ---> 84 ?bt i nv realise.....coz still hiding in a happy feeling....wih her smile on her face

den we broke up......and feel sad...eat MORE...!!! and MORE !!!! gain weight again......swt....bt wake up from the dream and realise ....den move bak home mom help me lose weight by cooking light food.....go gym somtimes.....eat less .....is like from 2 bowl of sayur plate rice ---> 1/2 normal chinese small bowl...finally....in 3months time thank god.....from 85 ----> now 76.....so happy.......

the revolution of my self in this 3 years

NOW GUESS !!!! WHICH IS ME !!!



2 month ago...

shong a....botak !
ying yang hair.....
kena shock by lighting....XD.
damn freaky long hair n an beng look.
punk hair
3 years bak

i were like 65 kgs wen i juz bak from ireland and for a meanwhile,i keep doing exercise den go down to 62....bt this is juz the beginning of hell.....wen i enter toa ,i were enjoying staying wih friends, go out mamak at night,lazying and all this coz me fat...really fat..bt not juz this...after "she" come into my life at my 2nd year, she were so good...to cook me good food, nice food, delicious food, tasty food....well u noe..wen som1 cook soooooooo damn nice food for u..u cant juz leave alot behide right...?so i finish it wih 2 bowl of like those put sayur punya rice...alamak....bt still happy.....den i gain alooooooooooooooooot of weight. from like about 65 ---> 84 ?bt i nv realise.....coz still in the hiding in a happy feeling....

den we broke up......and feel sad...eat MORE...!!! and MORE !!!! gain weight again......swt....bt wake up from the dream and realise ....den move bak home mom help me lose weight by cooking light food.....go gym somtimes.....eat less .....is like from 2 bowl of sayur plate rice ---> 1/2 normal chinese small bowl...finally....in 3months time thank god.....from 85 ----> now 76.....so happy.......

a night that wash my face wih tears

this is the 2nd time i cry after broke up wih my ex.tears juz come out from no where n washes my face wih the sadly feeling.as i lay down and keep relaxing my mind, kev a n kev b was fighting.
n
kev a of it said "y stupid cry for girls and she's not even ur gf"

kev b fight back"hey brother,it not like onli can cry for gf,had u ever imagine how hard he is go gone thru this time?"

kev a reply...."well that is bcoz he is so stupid,who the hell ask him go to used his heart, juz play play n continue his life that would be better"

kev b "arh....u devil....that will nv noe...human used his heart when he is really like or love som1."

me: shut up u both!...do not need to make decition for me!she edy maked hers,so no more arguement can be make anymore...she say BIG NO NO to me.

kev a "so sad....arg....poor baby.....no worry there is plenty more girl....scare wat."

kev b "kev, no worry she will understand u 1 day.....is a good experience for u oso....well...u still lag of this experiences....u will able to find ur fate."

"tq u both,bt in the mean while...plz do not comment anything,juz let me be me!i wish her to see the real me...not any1 of u...."

a special xmass

xmass eve went out to poopy garden bar hav a drink and friends drunk.wakaka he actually sleep on street and i hav to wait him on street over a hour.arrive home around 5am.sleep straight.b4 going bak home sended her a msg,asked if it posibble to proceed our relationship,she nv reply and my heart is worry and nervous.
next morning, i was waked up by her message ringtone,i knew is her msg me.again, heart is shaking and nervous,bcoz wanted to know the answer.as i expected,i fail.heart start melting,cant listend anything that said by others.soul lost,the onli thing left is a empty body.after lunch, went bak home staright and while driving, her msg keep playing in my mind.
after arrive home,i also do not know y,suddenly i feel so tired,feel like need to nap after all her msg was around my head,so tired.hope lifes will get better after next year, is quite bad this year..alot things happends.

Strange feeling

my strange feeling start from a lunch.my keep seems not so normal coz it keep paying attention to her.den i was trying to get her msn n number.(u noe wat i think lah.)a day after work, me n her was gather 2gether at a shopping mall.it is surpose for movie prupose de, but my heart keep "vibrate" wen having dinner b4 the movie.since that day, i noe wat i wan n i noe how i feel to her.so, the next thing i did is ask her to go out! finally i had this chance to go out wih her..shit tambah 1 extra ppl pulak.so wat cna i do...find a way loh.bt thanx god oso lah...she wan go off early..den i hav time to continue yam cha wih her.finally..somting happend (do not wan to tell u wat happend!)XD

my 1st task at quest

so the very 1st task is a xmass e-card.evonnce (my ah head) told me she need a corporate xmass e-card, den of coz i hav to said ok.after few minutes,i receive her mail.she sended me last year xmass e-card that done by other designer.den i was like ok.....herm....i think i can do better that this.so i started my research.feel free to give comment after see it.well is corporate stuff so...u noe lah...

here is the link.www.atquest.com/xmass_ecard.

My 1st multimedia job

i got a job from a company called atquest solution in damansara. the 1st day i started work there, erm...is kinda a weird.coz 1st day mah, so have to introduce myself to others. so janice the human resource people bring me to my place and start intro me to other ppl 1by1!.omg...is like i remember i onli said 3 sentence

1nd."hello i m kevin"
2nd."ello, nice to meet u , i m kevin"
3nd."morning , i m kevin"

is like so embarrassed.bt anyway.is a good experience.so..i m kinda like it.well ello to at quest stuff if u r reading this post. nice to meet u all!

miss her alot!she onli been go bak for about 1 week...bt feel like she is gone for a month....omg!i miss her everyday.wake up 1st thing is about her.sms her b4 i brush my teeth....wat so special about her?er......i love the way she treat her self....is so real...not like som girl so damn fake.even few days ago went to cineleisure watch blullet & brain....and saw a girl.....wtf??her boobs is like bola sepak....so damn fake....and her face oso.....cover using "make up mask".haiz....bt she oso manage to get bf a......probably their "night life"is alot more nice than mroning....i believe one day...when after they do their "business", and the girl take a way her "mask"...onli realise she is so fake den i think he need to scream n said "哇!!!看到鬼啊!"...bt mine girl diffrent...hehe....do not noe when she will accept me...bt i think she is the 1.and onli 1.got pic u ask me?er.....later bah....when i really with her le...den take som sweet pic den let u see see loh.

plz take everything that is belong to u!!!

2day abit moody...feel like alot stuff have to get it done bt progress now still 0%!!few day ago,ppl was tell me hey , u r 23 now still study n where is ur future? ya ho! where is my future??m i going to explore out there or i will guai guai stay in my dad company n get peace for the rest of my life??to be honest i dont really wan a peace life.i prefer explore n when i get hurt i get up my self althougt i m a person that like to cry alot.clean house suddenly a very familiar smell passing my nose..n my tears was dropping.it the smell of her.i m actually packing her stuff to let her take it bak when she come bak .i m moving bak to home soon.every single memories that leave in this house, i still "see" the shadow of her was her .making coffee for me,cleaning my bed for me b4 i sleep,sitting bside me ....hugging me,cook,take nap,smile infront me,every single sweet moment...till i shouting at her,mouth war,she keep quite,playing her great online games, chatting with other guys, everything still in my mind.

now is the time i 4get her.pack up her stuff and keep in the bag.even the memories i should put in the bag. let her take "everything " that is belong to her.alot things hav to keep magazine,books.too much!!is my future bright?peace?save? or fun? excited? too much things hav to be done.seeing my mom every single day get older and her wringles is more n more.i cry in my heart.mom! wait for me..1 day..1 day u will get wat u expect.althought i been disapointed u at my early age...now i wont...u will hav my promise...for u mom n dad! thanx for ur support me for 23 years.it is my paybak time...i should take care u 2.