Goodbye N Hello - 蔡健雅Tanya

朋友分享了蔡健雅的新专辑-Goodbye N Hello 给我，第一次听的时候觉得简直在说着我，每一句都让我想起某一段我和她的画面。我以为，我可以潇洒的放开她，但到现在都没办法。我知道，她不会回来了，毕竟水份还是占我身体的大部分，还是情不自禁的从眼睛掉了。心没办法开起来，没像从前那么开心了。喜欢自己关在房间里，开着冷气，听音乐，享受一个人。或许，祝福她未来拥有更好的生活，也顺便祝福我自己。

pieces of heart

so fast.it's already the 2nd week since i seperated wih her.we get along in a month time and last for a month.until now i oso not that sure how could she change that fast.

everytime drive bak home at late night after gym,will still able to see her sitting in my car and holding my hand.bt the next second,i m holding an air wih my tears falling down.is it telling me i put too much love into her?bt since her decision is maked, n i did tried to save bak, useless! end up my heart broke into small pieces again.it is hard to collect all them bak.

i may look happy all the time,bt wen sadness crush on me..BANG!!! i will like a glass drop on floor,broke into small pieces.will never recover in short time.now i start realise, gemini part in my life is getting lesser n lesser. friends r here wen fun is there. bt wen i need som1 to talk,open up my msn list, damn.....i cant even find a person to talk wih. tot my mobile list might save me, same thing happend.

till now, somtimes i still wish she is juz kidding wih me, call me n said april fool!!!! bt this aint april...everytime i look at her msn sign in, hopefully,will still see, "dear" this word appear in my chat window.bt its all gone. mayb i does not suit her, bt hopefully she maked a right choice this time.

IT's Finally Release

today, i decided to blog again and release this little secret place.share wih all and makes more friends.this used to be a place that i keep all my secret,all my sadness n happiness.well..sharing is caring,so decided to release it all.

谁会得到是双子一生的爱情?

据说十二星座中最难爱上一个人的就是双子座的人了?我这里说的是爱,不是喜欢.

1.拥有天蝎座的神秘,这是为了满足双子好奇心.读你千遍也不厌倦是双子保持爱情新鲜的第一个也是最后一个理由.不过天蝎有时候神秘过头会让双子很没安全感.

2.拥有白羊的直爽,有沟通上的困难马上就能了解到.双子不会爱的很累.还有白羊的大度,白羊会欣赏双子那天花乱坠的口才,就是知道双子在吹牛也不揭穿,双子虽然会觉得白羊很小孩,但很喜欢有一个这么忠心的听众.

3.双子有可能进入爱情状态的时候,但如果不制造一些事端,双子是很容易忽略自己内心感觉和别人感受的人.这时候狮子的傲气可以让双子有想去挑战的 感觉,但对双子来说,满足狮子的虚荣心和面子,在创造一些惊喜和体贴,狮子不倒是不可能的了.欲擒故纵对双子的致命,如果你用的好的话双子会很佩服你,不 过你要觉得你比双子更聪明.当然能让双子想去挑战的非天蝎莫属,只是难度很大,我怕你连怎么死都不知道.

4.如果想让爱情进一步升华达到爱的高度.必须拥有双鱼的温柔(可以化解双子的烦躁)天蝎对事情的洞察力(帮助双子成长),巨蟹的敏感(情绪上的安 慰),当然,还有天平的理解(好朋友的理解)和水平的默契(知己的感觉).只有能够洞悉双子脆弱的灵魂和理解双子不变的信念才能真正走进双子的内心世界, 而这时候你才真正拥有双子的全部.如果你拥有的双子的精神,那么其他的事是早晚的事情.

5.双子的爱情能量最大的时候就是在关系稳定的前后.在稳定以后,必须有处女的完美主义(处女不要太啰唆)把自己打造成最佳女友,水瓶的独立,射手 的自由,天平的和谐,因为双子不是甘于寂寞的人.在适当的时候要有天蝎的粘人,这样关系是不会出现问题了.不要出现什么猜疑,考验,因为到头来后悔的一定 是你.

6.都说金牛是最佳妻子.金牛对爱情的坚持和忠诚让双子很放心,嫉妒心和猜疑心适可而止,又喜欢做家务,双子虽然觉得她有点闷,但这样一来双子可以做很多其他事情.当然少不了魔羯的稳定的生活的照顾.

7.我不想说双子,因为双子自己很清楚?

双子座黑暗的一面

双子座的人动作太快，他们快到把自己都给留在幼稚园里忘了带走。他们的智慧深刻非要透过显微镜才能察觉。双子座既不男性化也不女性化，他们之中最成功的都 是中性人。双子座希望很快地取得所有的东西，当需要发派耐心的时候，他们永远坐在最後一排。双子座给得少却要得多，他们永远不说实话而且无感於迎头而来的 任何讥讽。不过他们倒是批评别人的一流高手。绝不能让双子座成为精神医师或是葬礼的总监，他们是破坏信心的高手。

last day at AQ

preparation for chee ting bday cake
chee ting de bday cake
AQ staff







wow....farewell for 6 ppl in 1 shot..nice.1st kimgary for dinner den take photos...after that sure gone wild at velvet lah.chee ting bday leh.damn shiok at velvet.hugging, dancing, shaking, drinking, highing,chatting.WOW ! shiok nyer! never so fun b4.

graduation !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally grad lu~, it been ages waiting for this moment to come. the day b4 keep thinking how to dress, wat is going to happend, nervous leh~!

morning...preparing and get ready to fecth friends.

afternoon .we arrive sheraton hotel and register. get our robe and dress up.

night........ step into ballroom and prepare to get diploma.lagi nervous.sit beside a AD gal call junnie if not mistaken.were hav a few chat wih her. den i heard "tai chen hwa" ....step up to stage carefully,bow at siao wei ---multimedia head of department and get my diploma from din of student miss veronica ho.yeah shiok~i got my 1st diploma !!!!! after grad sure dinner de lah.

wah...table i sit all from klang de.york jing and hui foong same table.after dinner parents went bak, den we heading to bar celona at sunway prramid.lolz....that idiot york jing drunk till siao. step oso drunk le...thanx god her "bf" was there wake her up wih ice and water. her "bf" abit angry oso, coz she were laying on my shoulder.jelous gua. damn that night vomited....bt still a shiok nite....wohoo....~

here is the link to look at those photos http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=35163&id=631230666

靠近

走在人挤人的走道我问了自已
没有爱情的人是否会长命
那些电影常常让人感觉甜蜜
但是我不相信
坐在没有人的角落我又问自已
究竟应该继续还是该放弃
没有人能了解我现在的心情
想看你想躲你难以决定
每当我想靠近你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去和现在新的你
我还想要参与你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去

坐在没有人的角落我又问自已
究竟应该继续还是该放弃
没有人能了解我现在的心情
想看你想躲你难以决定
每当我想靠近你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去和现在新的你
我还想要参与你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去
能不能够让我再说我爱你
还是你已不想听
能不能够把你彻底的忘记
我是真的搞不清
每当我想靠近你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去和现在新的你
我还想要参与你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去
只要你再相信
我们会轻轻地靠在一起

SEPV3 LIFE

were really accited to keep working, but thid SEPV3 stuff making me headache. i havent been designing a portal or intranet b4, now me alone hav to take care the whole project design , this is a big challenge to me. this sep v3 stuff really bored, mashead + button + site navigation bg + footer = 1 portal site ! information part u ask ? nah ! those leave it to programmer gao dim it lah !keep designing from blue + green ---> black + blue ----> orangie -----> red ----> mix alot colors.

som of it i do like it, bt still, no interactive = boring!!! oh ya ! last week juz done 1 site take a look. http://www.youcard.com.my . nth much to say about this site, alot stuff follow wat client needed, so juz gao dim it den take cek, case close !

letting it go..

is it letting it go really will get better?i wish i could answer that. the feeling come from 1st sign.it nv stop till now.bt there is no feedback or respond wen its happend, so wat is the result will be? it maked the whole feeling very abstract, cant even feel how future will be.after few trieds, and still fail, mayb the best solutions is letting go.hopefully time heal. the last time wen listen to those songs and movies that she love, were candy feeling. now, wen keep avoiding those song to be play.bt wen ever some love songs that is related to same situation, it really hurts,heart is crying,mentally totally lost control, cant even control my tears to coming out.

mayb i should really thank those ppl that r loving me, care about me. things always turn around.that life to me. single life till now omost 1 year.every1 tot i will find som1 else very soon,i might looks stupid, playful. cheerful from outside, bt is there any1 could look deeper? i wish there is.the onli 1 understand myself very well still myself. use to be som1 to understand me,bt that might be juz illusion.

from mind telling me, she is not ready for any relationship. everytime we ended talking on fone very soon, i tried to find som other topic to talk on, but seem to be not working. might be i had this mentally sick oso.from saying "miss u", "like u", "love u", all those candy talk b4 ended online conversation in the last 3 month, now becoming "miss u" that saying in heart omost every second.

somtimes i asked my self "do u really like her?" "of coz, or else how come i hav feeling?" but is it the really answer that i thinking in my mind or is juz simply an answer that i wan?i love the way she act, her personality for being so real, her attitude to do stuff. bt since i giving it up.....probably make it as data for part in my brain library, would be nice. carmein tam, i do love u.i cant explain the feeling that i had into u,bt missing u, thinking of u, trying to understand u is it not enough to telling i love u?